life ain't great now, but it's much improved
-Bubba Sparxxx, Ugly

I've been so caught up with adjusting with the death of my father, that I haven't been blogging at all in the past few weeks. I guess the reason that I quote the song if for the fact that it sums up my entire life right now. I'm feeling as if I am getting closer with some of my relatives, and the bond between me and my friends have greatly strengthened.

It just feels weird not having my Dad around, physically. I'm used to seeing him when I get home from campus on Tuesdays and Thursdays, when he didn't have to go for his dialysis treatments. Sometimes he would open the front door before I could even find my keys in my bookbag. They always managed to sink to the bottom.
I'm gonna miss the small things like that.

I'm also gonna miss how we used to talk about worldly affairs. My Dad knew a lot of stuff. He was smart! :)

For right now, I am adjusting well to not having him here. Without a doubt, I will keep him in my heart. Our house seems so big now, with only my Mom and I there. We've been in that house for over 10 years now. We moved in on my Dad's birthday (Aug. 26) now that I recall.

The house has never felt so empty in my entire life.

An Extra Note: according to the death certificate that my mother just recieved on Wednesday, Dad passed away on the 25 of October, not the 24th as printed on the obituary, in the newspaper, and in all the minds and hearts of all of the people that loved him.